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Blank and Emptythe thought of death is overwhelming
almost chokes me in my wake
sweating, tired and bloody
I think about blood pulsing slowly out of my veins
onto the white bathroom floor
what would the thoughts be when they found me?
These thoughts pour over my brain and
slowly swirl to the bottom
the process is consuming and almost
hacks away at the life of me
death - the only thing certain we know
and the only thing we know
yet here I sit still in an desolate house
with no name
Rudeif you think about a lifetime
it is shorter than you know
yet we spend our time with
worry tacked to our shoulders
for no reason at all
if you think love or money will save you from
your permanent fate then
you have a rude awakening
in the end it is all the same
a rotting grave with
a rotting heart
and nothing to show for it
Sad Girlsgirls and misery seem
to go along like nothing else
a perfect pair that could
never be ripped apart
they want everything and the world
yet nothing is good enough for them
it has something to do with
a void that is created during
conception that cannot
be avoided or
voided out by love
sadness deep within
that creeps up at any moment
waiting to ruin
all chance of
ABCs for the BrokenApril came with cold rain and my thoughts drifted to you.
Blue skies shined and smiles came and went,
Clogged in my heart cracks was that place you used to be
Deep enough to kill anyone.
Even though I moved on
Forgive me for what I have done
Gone and forgotten everything
How I promised I never would.
I swore on my heart, but now that I think about it
Junk is all my heart was in the first place.
Kept all those letters and songs written to me
Leaving them in the dark, I forget easier.
Many times have I cried over the unforgettable and the forgettable,
Never cried over what I had lost always what I have had.
Open with confessions
Pouring out of my head
Quitting what I had thought before all my past knowledge.
Regretting all those things I never will or never got to tell you.
Simple little things drive me insane
Taking care of this empty space
Under the rug I swept them and they stayed there for days.
Velocity of falling out of you
Wins over anything else planned.
X marks the spot on my he
Staggered SummerIn the morning on a
The immense g l a s s truth.
Grow cold and live happy,
We are only weaker in black and white.
Shadows in rain
d w e l l
Underneath slender death.
Hot rain grows
Awaking above this
a g g
Blood leaves adoring
I l l u m i n a t e d
L o n l i n e s s.
Spoke with whether the
Weather would make your day today
You awake in your bed
Wishing he was next to you.
We spoke in
YesteryearsAs the calender months fall off,
Slowly one by one,
Yesterdays grow into
Yesterweeks, yestermonths, and
There is no tomorrow anymore so
Don't count on it.
This place has been taken and
Down the rabbit hole we fall
Like we have nothing to loose at all.
I forget you as easily as I fall for him
Because falling in love is easy
Falling out is the hard part.
Now when I think of you
It's more like a song than
A memory or maybe some kind of
Disillusioned distant dream.
The torture used to be endless
But he's taken your place
I can't even remember your face.
I would have never thought
That saying good bye would
Be so easy this time around.
Maybe our love was more like
An action than a feeling.
All I know is this healing was easier than ever
And the more I think about us apart
The more I think about him and I together.
four.you told me you loved me today
- - - - - - - -
- - - - - -
so i admitted that
you make want me
Love Hurts (Matt X Tord) pt. 5
"where are we going?" Matt asked, Tord smiled, "you'll see." He then handed Matt a gun. "w- whats this for?"
"just bring it along."
Matt shruged and followed.
Matt and Tord went downtown where it was night and glommy. Tord and Matt hid behind a wall, that was next to a liquor store. "what are we doing?" Matt asked. Tord kissed him, "dont be scared, just follow my lead" The two both put on a mask. and went in.
"DRIVE! DRIVE!" Matt screamed. Tord did, the two went back to their camping area. Tord laughed as he landed the bed, "Matt that was so fun!" Matt didnt smile, "WE ALMOST GOT KILLED!" Tord chuckled. Matt eyes begin to flood with tears "ITS NOT FUNNY, TORD!" he cried. Tord stopped and walked over to Matt, "but we didn't." Matt sniffed, "thats not helping."
Tord hugged Matt on the back, "i- im sorry, Matt. I thought we could've tried something new." Matt still sobbed, "please stop crying" Tord tolled him. "i- i cant" Matt sniffed, "cause i do
Love Hurts (Matt X Tord) pt 2 During their break in school, Edd raced to his friends. "Hey guys!" he told them, Matt smiled, "Edd!" i need to tell you something!" "what about us?" Tom asked. Matt thought "Edd will tell you guys later" he told them, then took edd behind a tree.
"what is it?" Edd asked, Matt smiled, "i think im in love!" he said but not too loud. "Really?" Edd said, "with who?" Matt bit his lip, "uh... well we ment last night, i was getting mugged-"
"WHAT?!" Edd cut him off, Matt sighed, "then he saved my life, i dont know his name, buuuut, i feel in love with him" Edd facepalm then looked at his friend, "its not love when you dont know his name and saves your life. Its called being a friend" Matt scoffed, "it is so called love, it was love, Edd. Love!" Edd sighed, "eh, okay?"
The two came back, Paul and Tom were talking about girls, Edd decided to join in. Matt felt weird but stayed with his friends. "psst" a voice said. Matt looked around. There at the gate benches was a hand tell
Love Hurts (Matt X Tord) pt. 1 Matt is a ginger. A 14 year old ginger. That has a secret. A secret that he hasn't told any of his friends. Not Tom, Paul, or Edd. But today was the day when he was going to give it up.
Tom sighed as he sat down next to his friends, Matt gulped as he saw his friends sitting down waiting for him. He finally sighed, "alright" he said jittery, "i- i dont want any of you to get mad. O- or hate me. But i need to tell you something that i hid from you three for a very long time." Matt took a deep breath and finally spit it out, "i- im gay." The three of his friends all looked at each other, jaw opened, confussed, or with an 'what the hell?' look. Edd coughed and stood up, "uh.... we dont hate you, Matt o- or mad. We're just shooked."
Tom sighed, "at least he said it to us, before we found out our selves" Edd nodded. Paul rubbed the back of his neck, "i- its fine with me" he smiled. Matt did the biggest smile ever "THANKYOUSOMUCHGUYS!ILOVEYOUALL!" Matt saw their faces of what he s
AskingThey all ask for you after the end.
But somehow we have a beginning.
This was a complete accident.
It wasn't supposed to be like this.
I was supposed to be like them,
Asking for you.
I don't want that anymore.
But now you're asking for me.
And I'm terrified.
Four EW fanfiction pt. 1
As usaual Edd and his three friends sat on their one couch watching TV. "Hey everyone!" Matt said, "remember how we all meet?" The three thought for a moment. "i do" Tord said smiling. "Me too" Edd said, Tom shruged, "same." Matt smiled, "if only we could go back in time-" Suddenly a portal out of no where and out came their future selfs.
"we are you from the year 20-" Future Matt got cut off by Future Tom landing where they were at. "anyways" he continued, "one of you have to come with us to save our future."
The four looked at each, "whyyyyyy?" they asked at the same time. Future Edd cut in, "because it ruins your friendship, Tord leaves, Tom's gets boring, Matt gets vainer, and Edd. You die."
Edd was about to gasp, until, "wait, if i die, how come your alive?" Future Edd stopped, "uh... cause... Thats not important!"
"so.... where do we go back in time?" Tom asked. Future Tord said, "well if you listen for once, you would know" Tord smiled, "we g
LostFar away was a block or two
Far away was until I met you
You were across the state, I didn't care
My feelings for you were beyond compare
And now you're flying across the nation
Leaving here, so there you will station
I wish you wouldn't go away
I have never felt so far away
UntitledI take a drag from
His cigarette, and
The burn feels like
I taste a smooth drink
From his Sauvignon Blanc
And flashback to summer nights
With tequila and drunken giggles
And remembering just how much
Younger you were than me.
His eyes- filled with that glimmer
A man only gains with experience
Inside a woman's lingerie-
Are never as satisfying as yours were.
Every unfamiliar curve of my body
Amazed you and every gasp and moan
You managed to draw from my mouth
Made you smile like you just
Discovered magic does exist.
If you left any marks
You apologized as if you'd
Spilt water on the Mona Lisa.
As well as he treats me, and
As jealous as all of my friends are,
He pales in comparison to the way
We discovered each other and how
The blue of your eyes became
My ocean that summer.
If it kills me. Three things I've learned this year.
one. successfully stealing away a married man is nothing like I'd hoped.
I'd spent so long telling myself that you wold never leave her. When you
finally did I was more disgusted with myself and you than I ever imagined.
I have loved many a married man, I had trained myself to embrace the ending.
When it turned into a beginning I didn't know how to react. On cold mornings
waking in your bed I still find myself waiting for you to go. Forgive me.
two. when you love someone so desperately that you'd change literally every aspect of yourself to appease them, it is time to exit.
You made me so fucking scared of everything. You handed me all of your insecurities. I embodied them the best I could. I threw down my values and donned an apron for you. I grew to hate you. I hated myself. I hated our life together. I grew old. I took back my snarl. I raised my fists. I began to love you indifferently.
Undying LoveAnd I can't control it
I can't help this thought
I long for you
I must have you
I desire to have my hand
On your face
I can't help myself
But I have to indulge in
The sea of your eyes
I crave to have my hands
Through your pitch black hair
And yes I want you forever
You are my dying passion
My urge to stay awake
And my lust is for your heart
For your pure undying love
And I close my eyes
As I fall asleep forever
In the comfort of your heart.
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